Macovei Anda

七十二。 The Garden of Eden

April 17th, 2021

Those who are able to experience both bad and the good, those who are emotionally intelligent enough to juggle between the ill and the sacred, exactly the ones who project only what they wish upon being told about in tales to live long and great, those… I wish to never see in the mainstream media.

Ordinary people take things for granted and they twist their words back and forth which can eventually extend to mediocrity. People usually deflect what’s being put upon them as they might consider it wrong, as with the other category of people for which I hold so much respect for, they usually try and make out the good out of unfortunate situations. They know that to everything they do; every aspect of their lives is meant to have a balance and also could hold a deeper meaning than to what one might be able to scrap off the surface. It’s not always black and white, but sometimes grey. To the ordinary folk, that can only be dreamt upon. To some extent, it’s not because they don’t want to achieve that end goal, but rather they don’t own the tools to get there. Everyone has their own limitations and greatness to them and sometimes it’s hard to be put into another perspective. It is only a matter of time before their will be able to work on that craft, though not many are able to finish it in time.

Ultimately, it stands within us to finally break the cycle and create new routines. It is all based on past and current experiences and how we are able to process them in a way that not only helps us, but could also be of help the familiar folk. Mastering problem recognition skills and how to act upon those thoughts is the main separating factor. Rather than painting themselves as the victims, they do it the other way around. To successfully grow, we need to hurt.
七十一。The Sale on Children

April 15th, 2021

Before two people decide to conceive a child and care for that child, they should consider making sure that their mental and physical health are in good shape. Mainly because, as the child grows older, they will eventually pick up behaviours portrayed by their parents and if there are issues within the family set, it will show through the actions of the child. I see so many people rushing with marriage and having kids as if it is a race. Before taking such detrimental steps into their lives, they should make sure they are able to tick all of the right boxes so that their child will not have to suffer during their lifespan. We shape our definitory character as soon as our early childhood, parents should not rub their own dirt and insecurities over their child.
七十。Pandemic Party Tricks

April 13th, 2021

The fact that some institutions are running at full capacity right now without following the guidelines of social distancing, no masks, no nothing makes me so fucking mad. Those institutions are willing to put other people’s health on the line just for a small bonus in their incomes. What is worse is that those people that actually WILLINGLY attend those events later on get in contact with others and their families and could potentially spread the virus around. This is horrendous. No wonder cases are growing each day with idiots like this. The cherry on top is that they are the same people that would complain about the virus. They are part of the problem. How can some be so oblivious?

(And don’t you dare come at me saying things like “I’m sure they are tested beforehand” and to that I have to ask you, are they tested every single week? As those events are held weekly? Trust me, nobody is willing enough to make such an investment as that would generate a hole in their incomes.)
六十九。Physical Aggression

April 11th, 2021

！TW！ I think the worst part about being sexually assaulted no matter if you’re a girl or a guy, is the fear of talking about that trauma. It’s just really hard putting it into words as doing that makes you relieve the situation, an event which you never asked for to occur. By doing that, you stumble and end up phrasing it the wrong way making the person you’re confessing to believe that it is a “made up story”. Telling the wrong people is also world shattering, especially when they make fun of you because of it, they make fun of the victim, but rather not get angered with the aggressor. Nobody wants such things to happen to them, they wouldn’t willingly lie about that. You must be a monster to do that. It’s really fucking hard putting it into someone’s perspective… Cutting ties in that scenario is also an extremely valid factor to consider. You don’t have to give an explanation for why you’re abandoning them, as they have emotionally abandoned you beforehand. It’s hard;
六十八。The Victimization of Influencers

April 9th, 2021

I really do believe apology videos are just a bunch of crap. They don’t deserve anyone’s time. Why is that, they are all scripted. They are all supposed to be something the general public wants to hear, it has to align with the general opinion of things whether or not the person making the apology means it or not. Those videos are targeted to please people, to make people believe that they are right and the person who’s apologising for a certain action they have done or words they have said is wrong. The thing is, you can script the words you are saying, you can double check the text over and over again, but your body language will remain flawed. Unless you have some sort of nonverbal communication knowledge, your true colours will show through. You can’t mask away the way you truly feel as actions speak louder than words. Apology videos aren’t genuine most of the time and the person apologising just wants to get some drama off their hands. They want to wash away their mistakes with a few apologetic words. If they were truly sorry, they would focus on their behaviour first and would try to understand why what they did was wrong instead of going the easy way and pulling the victim card.
六十七。Made-up Bonds

April 7th, 2021

The reason to as of why you are not able to maintain friendships long-term is because you try too hard to please the person you want to initiate a bond with. You accept little things they do that may upset you, but since they hold little to no value in the said moment, you look over them. The problem is, they pile up in the long run. When that bond eventually breaks, you burst and complain about all of the aspects you’ve held back on discussing about. The truth is, you are at fault for not being able to keep that so called “friend” close. Why is that, you put them above you. You’ve let them be themselves while you’ve been hiding in their shadow, not allowing yourself to shine by having personal opinions and beliefs. Everything you thought were your self proclaimed facts were actually just things that mirrored the other person as a result of the bond forming. Now, you could’ve been on the same line of thought with that person at the start, that’s why you clicked, but you change the way you think and act every single day as new information is stocked into your mind. Your consciousness never had a chance to show you that because you were too busy not bothering nor upsetting the person you called your “friend” with your “silly” opinions. Whatever they said, was right. That kind of friendship is not needed as it deteriorates and rots your core. Don’t accept things that upset you unless given an explanation for as of why they might’ve happened. It’s your life that you have power over, don’t give that right away, don’t put the making of your future self in the hands of another, it never turns out well. Respect yourself just like you keep on respecting others. You deserve the same energy, even if you feel it’s not the right thing to do, as you don’t deserve it. Trust me, it’s worth it in the end.
六十六。Make-Believe Happiness

April 5th, 2021

It’s so hard not to take the blame for a misfortune which seems to be a reappearing event of your life. Things come, they pile up, they rot within your being, they overtake you. You can’t avoid them as you feel shame and guilt, but only because you’ve substantially became one with the feeling. The destructive feeling. You’re breaking, you’ve lost yourself in that never-ending void. Life pushes you harder each day and the events going down in your life make you feel unworthy of your success, unworthy of making a living, of trying… You’ve reached a breaking point. You’ve went back to what you once were. But at what cost?

Here’s a pro tip I’ve learnt the past year: don’t try to always be happy. You can’t and will never be. Rather than trying to focus on a “fake positive” and instead of trying to enforce that state of mind, try and become at peace with your other emotions. There is no sunshine without rain, there is no happiness without pain, what do you think makes yourself so different from these situations? Embrace your other emotions and only then will you be able to start your true journey to achieving true happiness.

In addition to that, stop trying to get into people’s heads just for the sake of your own comfort. No, you can’t always know what people think and no, you can’t assume their thoughts by nit-picking at your own consciousness. Think for yourself for once and ask yourself what you consider safe. Create your own happiness.
六十五。The Monarchy of a Teacher

April 3rd, 2021

Teachers who assume are allowed to talk over us, belittle us students, are absolutely disgusting and don’t deserve any respect to begin with. You are not better than us because you excelled in a domain you are proficient in, you had the skill to. You are absolutely despicable for shaming us for not being able to do the same. We are individually proficient in other sub-domains that you’ve probably never heard of. Old ways will never open new doors. I am not shook to see that the communist way of teaching is still present to this day, as one should be superior to the other. You, a teacher, are not helping us, the students, by talking greater than us. Jesus fucking Christ, at the end of the day, we are all human. Have some decency.
六十四。Teenage Existentialism

April 1st, 2021

You can’t expect people to not be superficial nowadays when that’s the end goal which is preached most of the time. I mean, all this “You have to love yourself and you have to prove to yourself that you’re worthy, nobody else is entitled to that.” bullshit is so just over the surface of things, as if we are meant to fit into extremes. The term “love” is a very strong word and believing you can get there just like that is utterly stupid. Nobody talks about their whole journeys to self-love without ALWAYS and ALWAYS saying how they used to “hate themselves” in the past. That was you trying to fit into a spectrum which was not created for you exclusively, you were trying to apply the general norm into your life without actually realising that the uniqueness of people is what made some believe they had to create an ideal which could be applied to everyone without question. Because we all have to be the same apparently. No one will ever reach that point where self-love is the constant mindset we have, we will always have things we don’t agree with doing in ourselves and things we treasure about ourselves, but this whole “Self-love is the ultimate goal that will make you forever happy!” is horrendous. Try and balance out the emotions you are experiencing rather than sweeping under the rug what you don’t like.
六十三。May God Watch Over Us

March 30th, 2021

I believe that teaching children about religion at a young age is good as long as it’s done right. Little kids shouldn’t grow up with the mindset that if they do something against what’s written in the bible, or any other religious book for that matter, they will be punished and they will be held accountable in the future for their actions. How I see religion is that it’s something beautiful and it gives people something to believe in when they’re at their lowest. It’s a fundamental teaching that children should have, but at the same time, it could, in some cases, be something that could escalate into indoctrination. For example, being a virgin, right? Saving yourself until marriage or else you’ll be looked down by the man/woman in your life and you will be securing a place in hell the moment you pass away. Having that thought haunt you and make you afraid of experiencing a sexual life pre-marriage is not something to be even thought of. People should choose for themselves, not because it is written in an old book. But then again, it depends on how every adult decides to live their life, as children cannot legally nor by themselves take such decisions. They should be presented with the options they could choose to live their lives by, be taught how to distinguish the bad from the good, but they shouldn’t have such harsh rules be implemented in them at such a young age. They should decide. Themselves. But only when they are able to consent. When they are able to make decisions on their own.

Basically, adults that choose to live by that live style shouldn’t be judged or shamed for it, but adults who enforce that lifestyle onto children at a young age should.