Jesus christ, it’s so scary how people are able to hide their sadness and just ace that kind of behaviour. I think the worst thing is how mental illnesses like depression, anxiety, adhd, suicidal tendensies are just being thrown around like they’re nothing. It’s a plague, a plague our generation is dealing with. Normalising such things at the point of romanticising them, it should be a reason to worry about the times that might have to come. It’s just so trendy right now to be sad, to be lost in your sorrow, when in reality it is such a traumatic experience. I’ve been there, I’ve dealt with that, it had helped me become the person I am today. Am I grateful for those times? 100%. Even so, I’d never wish to see my loved ones deal with it. Do you even realise that people that actually deal with those things and grow that courage to go seek help, they do it in silence? It’s shameful to openly say you’ve went to a therapist to solve a problem, but it’s not shameful to say that “uhhhh so I woke up one day, stumbled, broke a foot which made me feel depressed”. Fuck you. Fuck you for shit like this. This rant comes from a place of sorrow and pain.
Depression is not something you suddenly get, you suddenly feel. What you are feeling is sadness, which is 10 times less than what the mental illness means. It’s the little things that pile up, it’s the emotions you keep to yourself with the fear of bothering others, all those things pile up and without you even realising it you find yourself in a place of pain and deep sorrow. Depression lasts and it’s dangerous, but when it comes to sadness it’s easier to “treat”. It’s not beautiful, it’s not something to be proud of, but it is also not something you should feel shame about. It’s okay, many deal with it, the difference between you and them is knowing when it’s time to act about it. When too much is too much. I want to openly encourage people to seek help, we are not meant to heal our scars by ourselves, we need one another. Please try and embrace that thought. Just because the intensity of your emotions isn’t the same as someone elses, that doesn’t mean your experience is not valid. We deal with our pain in different ways. Please take care yourself, darling. It’s okay. People care. I care.